the interviews--the first one didn't go well. i got the impression right away that i didn't 'click' with her--and i'm not kidding--she rolled her eyes the WHOLE time. it was to the point where i thought she had something medically wrong, some kind of strange tick. really, she was just a cold bitch. we couldn't even find common chit-chat about her favorite american city--chicago--which sort or prepared me for what i was in for right off the bat. i got the impression she already had someone in mind and she was curious if i'd 'blow her away,' which she really gave me no chance to. she kept repeating that it was 'informal' but it was anything but.
it wasn't just her--i got REALLY nervous. but when someone is sitting there rolling their eyes at everything i say, i mean, it wasn't conducive to relaxing. i feel rotten about the whole thing; but, i stuck with it, was asking lots of questions, showed that i understood what the company does and that i'm interested, yadda yadda, but she totally didn't care. i talked to the recruiter after, and she said the interviewer could tell i knew my stuff and was articulate and well-presented but that i lacked confidence. ugh. yeah, i flopped, like a cartoon goldfish flopping around after escaping from a fish tank.
as bad as i felt, when i walked away, after asking her about a hundred questions as to what the role entailed, she couldn't answer them very well. in the end, i don't think it's what i would have wanted, and honestly, if i had to work with someone like her--haha. but i hate when i don't perform as well as i should. i let it get me down too much.
it did force me to reflect on exactly what is that i want to do (for work). which, i'm realizing, has the opposite to do with a company with a stupid name that creates reports punctuated with an abundance of exclamation points that are full of really obvious observations about customer habits in retail. i mean, seriously, do you need a report telling convenience stores that because customers like to buy milk, you should stock milk? seriously. i read that report. i guess i should be even more selective when job opportunities cross my path--really research the hell out of them. make sure their company name has no exclamation points! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! not that i'm bitter. hmph.
the second interview was cancelled about an hour beforehand. that was the job i REALLY worked hard to prep for--had about 10 pages of notes, had all my interests stacked up and aligned with their guiding principles. was so well up to speed--but i guess i just take that enthusiasm for the next one. sigh. it was cancelled because apparently, the company ALREADY MADE SOMEONE AN OFFER and they accepted yesterday. so, um, i guess i wasn't technically in the running from the get go?
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That first one sounds like an awful fit. I had an awful awful interview right after I was let go from Duralee and it was similar. I was depressed and stressed and unfamiliar with the company, plus the position I was interviewing for hadn't been outlined clearly. I went in their sweating, and tried to loosen up but it was pretty obvious I was nervous and lacking self confidence. One of many events that led me to seek out therapy.
As for the latter: that's a big bummer. You put so much work into the interview and poof! gone. HUUUUUUUUUG
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